Stochastic Cerebrations

Whenever I am talking to you you don't have to be the one who leads the conversation Without your counsels and your solaces Whenever I am talking to you I'll prefer that you stay around Just as an assurance that you're there For now and for the time to come Fatigued, majority of nights Waiting for those gentle glimpses, patiently Just a blink and a wink Whenever I am talking to you To assure me that you understand Often, all I need is,  Just.  To be heard. But till now you've just let me down

There were more of good days and less bad days I'll ever forget the times we had I had expected the same from you, but I was wrong The times are changing for you those memories are slowly fading away Hoping against the hope racing against the time  I pray and will continue to wish That someday things will be normal you'll realize who we were who I was in your life unless you were faked till now The clock is ticking with every second, the times are changing holding onto past is something I can't do now because there is no assurance if my past can be a part of my time to come Caring for you in past was unconditional but now why should I Shedding the last one from the parched eyes I live in fear that you'll be gone yet as times change I let go of that fear, Fck You!

Gazing, a gaze this must be.. The heart so pretty As beautiful as heaven on earth As precious as the kohinoor Alive, jubilant and jocund Gazing, a gaze this must be.. The spellbinding eyes The cute face The ocean of beauty, I can drown inside Gazing, a gaze this must be.. the smile of a new born spanning my reckon and dearest times, illuminating my skyline Gazing, a gaze this must be.. Never ending days accompanied by solitary darks A wait for the sun to come up, just to talk to you to fall back, to lose everything without any gain ..with rain drops romancing with the crust The redolence emanating from the sand to live and long for some other day all over again.

A wish that you'd accept my way A peculiar way of staying quiet A sign is what you ask for A definite acknowledgement, day in-out For we are each others I'll never understand your need to see Validation of feelings growing more, daily Utmost with time, or that their form must be An exhibition of emotions, crude, candid and pure All I do, yet I fail you in this The centre of my thoughts The single governing force of mine All will be like this  Until my life finishes its marathon Is docile, invariant passion now second-rate Compared to love, stinging close to hate?

Someone will be the captor of my heart, Someone will be  the cherished award, Someone will be chosen one The one who'll be my woman and my queen. Someone who will be elegant and beautiful Someone who'll enjoy the kid inside me Someone who'll understand my thoughts Someone who'll know me inside and out She will be my woman My friend, my life Someone who will I love more than I love myself Someone who will be loved  till the Earth ends This is for her A promise to be true A promise to be noble To be her knight in the shining armor Standing by her forever Till the time she wants me too 

There are times when you sit to pen down something but for some reason it remains incomplete. Below are some of the lines which I've never managed to complete.  You might call it my laziness but right now I'll blame the current state of mind and nothing else. You'll never see what I feel The way a violated part is hurting me With my pride I know how to conceal The annoyance and grief spread across I'll cry in the rain Just to camouflage the pain.. ======== The male's obscure grief to own Female's fulminant fade in hues. Coalesced  tears with rain Endeavoring t o run out the lancinating pain. ======= She was confused and scared Looking over her shoulder She saw him being reduced to a shadow in the darkness With some courage she wanted to stop him But the tears over powered her voice There was a sense of relief on his face He felt relieved from the commitment he once made As a life began struggling to su...

Every minute of the past few months You have been using a mask to hide the real you Every night, as you lie in bed, you always wonder about your existence here What you could have done, what you could have said Every day that passes by you try to help and be a ally But day in and day out, you only wish it was the end. Daily you put on the masking smile just to hide the droopy  scowl There are times when the mask slips off  The biliousness rises and you have nothing to be sad about There will be those who don't know the truth They are not meant to know the truth Till today, the mask goes on The only time I could think your mask isn't on Is the time when the night meets the dawn It can be possible that the mask will become the real you But you'll just have to wait and watch For it is you who needs to adjust the mask

Oh dear shadow of mine I can't help but enjoy being with you more each day The urge of being with you is more than words can say The days pass, I lose control After a while, I'll miss you with all my soul Whether you enjoy or whether you care I'll always be there for your smile For it is like the sunshine after a spell of thunder I need you to know, I'll always be there When you're in sorrow and breaking apart When someone breaks your heart and the cuts are deep On days and nights when you cry yourself to slumber I need you to know, I'll always be there On days when you feel you're alone When someone you confide moves on When all you need is a shoulder to lie upon,  I need you to know, I'll always be there Today or Tomorrow Days or Weeks Months or Years I'll be there for you To talk, to listen, to laugh, to gossip To worry, to weep or just to believe Just turn around and you'll find me Eternally to support you E...

The reason why I write is the reason why I breathe Life might be a bird without wings Had words not been there to express myself Word for word I write my soul Things which I could never speak Without the invisible expression, so strong I would cry every day Forgetting the regret is what I try Don't wanna miss the life which is mine Without speech what I veritably feel I'll stay like this, always then The reason I write is the reason why I breathe  It's so that an Eagle can fly to the limitless ocean above I,with the want to rise higher and higher Finally stopped asking Why do I write?

I lay on the grass With my eyes wide open I dream on The dawn dwells up I rinse the stars and color the sky With wings and thoughts of joy I fly high Across the mountains Across the rivers Where the mind meets the heart where time is eternity where youth is preserved forever Love and care are my companions All this and much more in my land of utopia

Like a flower Radiating in it glory With each seed narrating its own tale As each petal blooms As it continues to grow The intensity and noesis upholds to show It becomes a bouquet Continues to blossom much more fair Tended cautiously By those who care. Once in life You cross a person As lovely as daisies As refreshing as lavender roses With a kind heart to lend I saw this bouquet I picked it up Soon all its pieces Matured in my heart But then I realized They were not leaves and petals But pieces of you. The love, the forgivingness The endurance and the might Acted like manure for me to grow Into my own orchid With our relation Which we'll never let go refreshing and energizing each other A flower you are,  A flower I am

As her baby soft hands reached me in ways I desired for Ohh that hurts me in coruscating ways  I was never prepared for nor I would have been With that, she holds me like I am the only one Ecstasy, the way we hug as we melt in arms Her love flowing through the embrace With the mild suaveness her heart registers surprises We look in each other eyes, I see my soul in them For life is a dream, blinded by her love I hope she craves for me in future, like today Her love completes my heart For my Raymonds suit to call me a complete man. :-P

Imagining  of tracking down the shadow of this wilderness within Imagining  of the hollow, void abyss existing behind a blossoming flower.  Imagining  of the leaves laden pathway hiding layers of memories Imagining  of strolling on the maple way revisiting the memories Imagining  of the gates keeping back floods  of different sorts Imagining  of this universe brimming into a splendiferous bowl  reserved, served and deserted. Imagining  of my fingers as tower of hanoi,  adorned with zodiac of different colors Imagining  about not Imagining  anymore?

O discovery of Newton I bow to you Recognizing your ability I beg you to spare me please Ignoring my plead, you son of a guy As my nosey keeps on running, it keeps on humming I am a sniper, using my nose I shoot liquid, so swiftly I discard I keep on targetting, but can this be undone? My nosey keeps on running, it keeps on humming I pop pills, I take steam, because I am a nincompoop Is it a cabal, I wonder laying on a mucus pool Those scoops of ice creams, those bottles of soft drinks I plead for mercy As my nosey keeps on running, it keeps on humming I get nostalgic childhood days keep on flashing When I pledged "I would not touch them again" I won't have cold beverages or food I would scream if you take me to a doctor  Ohh please mother, don't scold me further I'll be a good son As my nosey keeps on running, it keeps on humming

The monotony transports as dawn turns to dusk,  Clock ticks, and you don't know, lives change  We exchanged glances, and something else Which was yours became mine  and you became the owner of what I had  You made me poor by plenty  Yet I had your thing which made me rich  With the bag full of weightlessness  I wander over the green lands, the cold sands  Under the star lit night, All I have to is fight  Its today and so, time and tide  And yet I am unaware  The monotony is busy;  Mortals get lost, mired in one other  Only to find themselves resting in a grave  Like at the end of a tiring day.

Just a single instant from my past If I could hold it close forever Just to make that instant last forever I'd put the instant in a locker within my heart's dwelling Opening it when I want to for it'll be me who would have the key I'd be able to choose a time for being rhapsodic I'd be able to choose a time for having fun A time that tried me through everything I've done Sitting and remembering about that instant, which will make me smile an instant which would push me, to walk that extra mile An instant to kick me out  if I'm feeling sad and depressed I'd just go to the locker and watch my instant through. There are instants which I can think of There are instants which I cannot forget Instants that would lift my emotions every single time Instants which I gathered when there was an uphill battle when the road was hard to climb. I've gathered up a heap instead Picking up that one instant  to ch...

An endless city where I live A friend is all I have at the nook With the clock ticking, Days and weeks rushing  With a blink, the moment is lost For life's a qabalistic twisted race You'll probably not see me again I don't know you'll miss me well but will I miss you is not hard to tell A deplorable wicked game called life An unidentified, frightening path of life I'll be near, yet knots apart Probably that's what you'll get  A conked companion on some street Before the train starts chugging Before it vanishes in thin air Blabber what you wanna blabber Express what you wanna express For, the clock's ticking For I, want you to know, you've been my alter ego I'd pray you would always be my companion through thick and this..crest and troughs I'll be yours  but the call will be yours  and the life goes on..

The screaming machine, eructation of steam Drifting me in a mesmerizing way calm and composed on the surface but boiling beneath Fragrant, redolent delight, impugned, maltreated and often ramped against yet owning the right to be blissful in a tiny vessel of any shape Dark, acrimonious and black Its a mystery why anyone would love you An edge, soft and comfortable for my lips I take in the aroma which you've hidden inside Staring in an abyss of darkness yet I'm  illuminated By the hidden warmth, Fazed by the soft touch of lips Your body comforts my cold hands Finding their way around, my lips touch you once again Your black soul spreads the warmth throughout my body Clearing my mind, leaving me insomniac Oh coffee what a drink Warm and dark reminding me of my companions You are my friend in need On the table while I study On the pathway while I walk On the bed while I snuggle with the warmness of solitude Now and again with a good book. You a...

It's odd how those who were complete strangers are the ones who are now the best buddies It's odd how those who never expressed their feelings while they were together are the ones who end up becoming a couple It's odd how those who show me the highest love  are the ones who expresses it the least in words It's odd how those who express the love in words  are the ones who end up hurting the most It's odd how those who botched up every damn thing are the ones who make you feel chagrined It's odd how those who plead for mercy, pardon are the ones who deserve it the least It's odd how those who are always smiling and make you smile are the ones who have overcome many griefs It's odd how those who have been through many griefs/heartbreaks are the ones who can always overcome the pain Probably, It's odd because everything can be related to time and space.. But for me, It's odd because I don't think its odd!(o...

Helping me unite Sharing with people  Between the lost ones in the journey called life And those who I loved and who loved back Sign up, sign in and never sign out stalking to know the whereabouts looking for the number called notification A passion as hollow as bamboo yet strong A sms on my phone and a mail in the inbox Communicating me that I have a pending request A wall to dirty without a thought of being thrashed after Hi, Hello, Birthday wishes to greet me morning and night! Rising from ashes like a phoenix A photo emerges and you've been tagged Is it really you or was it an animal And yet they thought it was comical As I like it As I use it It'll remain a book  Of friends, acquintances and strangers An assuming way to uncover the past and enjoy the future while being in present